The first call from the X

The phone rang, so I picked it up and looked at the caller I.D and it said John Randall ( the name of the X ) My body started to shake and my heart fell into my stomach, I almost did not answer but I decided that I should. I said hello, but no one would speak I said hello again, than he hung up. I hung the phone up and just started to cry, I am not sure why I was crying, I just wanted to hear is voice, just to let me know that he was ok, I know that he hates me right now but I still love him so much. I did what was best for the both of us....... I think