they say that if you have never experienced pain you will never understand happiness I have no problem with being in pain sometimes, but why does it have to come sporadically? just out of the blue I have been thinking about all the sadness i have ever felt, from the lost of love ones, falling in or out of love or just being disappointed by the ones that you love. It so hard to deal with this when you feel so shut up in your own body. I feel like I can breath and the only way to even feel any type of release is to just cry, cry like its the last time you can ever cry.

A merry heart maketh a cheerful countenance but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken. Proverbs 15:13