Hostile

Considering I've never been a very Hostile person
You seem to be putting Hostility in me.

See I use to be able to close my eyes take a few deep breaths
........................(Breath LeAnna Breath)
couth to ten, and my anxiety would flee.

Things are a little different now that you have explored every inch of my skin intimately,

Now that you made that commitment to be my rock and never leave.
I'VE NEVER BEEN A HOSTILE PERSON

BUT YOUR PUTTING HOSTILITY IN ME The dancing you did to win me seem to cease, and the openest and honesty turned into a locked box full of lies and cheats. My sadness shifted into anger my anger swayed to hostility and revenge is the only thing i can think.
So I reached out for the closest thing to me...... My pen filled with ink.

I write down my words and leave with my dignity

Stress

She lies there motionless, in a puddle of what seems to be her own
perspiration

It's as if she cut out her own glans and extracted sweat to sell on
the black market, unsuccessfully.

Her body still reaking of coffee beans and that new car smell.

Which is actually noxious fumes caused by various glues.

Side effects may include headaches, sore throat, nausea, and possibly cancer.

She has become cold and callous to the apathetic people around her.

Removing her mind from her body to complete another 14hour day.

Sleep deprived an anemic, she continues her path of financial gain,

Which consequently begets her mental mortality

work work work.......

~~Welcome Home~~

I began blogging again about 1 week ago, but I started a brand new blog. Then I thought to myself that I want to continue with the one I started 4 years ago. Its become a time stamp of my life and shows who I was and now who I am.

Terry

Still my favorite Blog
check it out

overrated

Ok, so I know I said that relationships are overrated but it sure is nice to be in one again.

now i like this song

Don Juan doing his thing @ the ohm

This video is taking a long time to upload but its a new friend reading his poem "shut the fuck up" his name isTal L. Neumann

me at poetic nights @ the ohm

The Ohm

my friend rod turned me on to this place (what as awesome drummer) that one of his many bands plays at on Thursday night for poetic nights (the name is blacknotes check em out) and it was awesome the vibe was nice and so was the music & talent I got on stage to read some spoken word and i must say i did a great job. i will post the video as soon as i get it online.
but check out the bands blacknote and copacrescent

I NEED A NEW MOUSE MINE SUCKS!!!

the new me

well i started a weight lost journey the last few days and so far i am doing ok, NO POP!!!!!!!! i have drank so much water that i cant eat because i full off of h20. i know it will be hard but it will pay off in the end. i also am going to start boxing again i bought a heavybag and speed bad training set (not that im not already good but i need to build up my stamina) my goal is to get back in shape and start fighting. I think it will be a good idea to start posting my process as a motivational tool. but i wont post how much i weight now just what i lose. wish me luck! and just so you know when i do lose the weight i will be a jaw dropper (cause i already am really cute lol)

i could not have said it better myself (niggas niggas niggas)

:(

going to work with a hangover is one thing but going still drunk is another level. at least i make coffee for a living

Go check out the show

Four Finger Five

March, 30 2007 at Langano Lounge
Not Available , Portland, Oregon 97214
Cost : $2

Be on the look out for a new band in the portland area
Four Finger Five
some awesome guys from my home town Muskegon Michigan

welcome back

wow there was a time in my life i blogged a few times a day, then i just stopped but i really want to get back in to it, i have alot of people that read my blog tell me i need to keep it up so thats what i am going to do, and if you are new to it then check out the past blogs i have done over time.

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someone asked me today would i vote for Mr. Obama just because he is black? I think that they were surprised to hear me say yes i would, dont get me wrong i like what he is all about but for me to be able to live my life and see a president that is black would mean more to me then all the riches in the world because it tells me that there is a change happening in the world. judge me all you want, i dont care what you think! vote for obama 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy V.D

WELL FEB 14 IS THE DAY OF THE YEAR OF BIG EXPECTATIONS THAT NEVER SEEM TO BE FILLED. BUT THIS YEAR FOR ME WAS LIKE NO OTHER YOU SEE THIS WAS THE FIRST YEAR IN 6 YEARS WITHOUT HAVING JON WITH ME, I NEVER KNEW HOW DEPRESSING IT CAN BE NOT HAVING ANYONE ON V.DAY THANK GOD IT ALMOST OVER!!!!

I dont think that I will be done blogging forever, I just wont be spending that much time on it anymore. For me I think that it is alittle useless (not talking about anyone other than me) you cant say what you really want to and the few things you do say people will take out of content. so thats that.


anyway, one thing that I want to say is this I hate when the things that you once liked in people are now the same thing you hate in them, and now all you want to do is tell them. I hate you, you discuss me and I feel you are just a waste of space!
But i wont because I am a Christan ;)